Oct 23, 2006
i dont seem to have much to talk about...must be the weather..must be the fasting..must be something on my mind NOT viable for an entry.i found my self at that fabled junction we read so much about during my SPM days..and i wonder which road should i take..usually the path i took was the road less taken..but this is different.now the question hangs like a silent scream..should i discontinue my lonely path..or should i walk the other way,and wonder what would have been had i chose the road not taken?
should i take the path i used to take..or should i take my chances?
Friday, April 27, 2007
10 reasons why i dont need a girlfriend
21 Feb 2007
10 reasons why i dont need a girlfriend
1. money's tight!i dont have enough money yet,to get one would be a waste of time, energy and more importantly money!many people would agree with me on this,instead of a girlfriend,i'd rather buy a bike, or a ps3 once it's out..at least my money would be worthwhile.
2.just what's the benefits of a girlfriend? would i be a better husband?can i practise being a husband now?can we be like man and wife?is this like a masak-masak thing?can i play the wife..oh c'mon..ok..at least i wanna be the spoiled brat.hehe
3.hey..meeting outside+without marital ties-isnt that like a 'cheating on your wife' scenario?
4. i've got too many girlfriends..though at the current time it's not that many.why should i be friends with a girlfriend?should i make the others my enemies?but in that case they're too many.should i surrender?
5. i'm too irresistable.it's a known fact that i'm hot.too many girls are after me.if i let one get too close,there are bound to be others.it's hard enough as it is..
6. i'm too preoccupied with myselfi'm narcissistic.i look in the mirror,and the next thing u know i'll be staring at myself so long people are starting to line up before me.i wonder why some mirrors crack though..
7. i've got a computeri'm sorry,my heart is filled with love for this baby.u wont get anywhere close right now.i'm stedfast as a rock!
8. i can get too emotional sometimes.i write poems,cry everytime i see the sunset, cry again seeing that poordog licking ice off the road in peak winter, and cry yet again when my eyelids get stuck from the frozen tears..what happens when all that emotion get blown out of proportions in an even more emotional relationship?
9. i'm the type who zones out often, but i see couples..man- it's like outer space!
10. in my planet,girlfriends are synonymous for wives..there's actually no such thing
hehe just for laughs..
10 reasons why i dont need a girlfriend
1. money's tight!i dont have enough money yet,to get one would be a waste of time, energy and more importantly money!many people would agree with me on this,instead of a girlfriend,i'd rather buy a bike, or a ps3 once it's out..at least my money would be worthwhile.
2.just what's the benefits of a girlfriend? would i be a better husband?can i practise being a husband now?can we be like man and wife?is this like a masak-masak thing?can i play the wife..oh c'mon..ok..at least i wanna be the spoiled brat.hehe
3.hey..meeting outside+without marital ties-isnt that like a 'cheating on your wife' scenario?
4. i've got too many girlfriends..though at the current time it's not that many.why should i be friends with a girlfriend?should i make the others my enemies?but in that case they're too many.should i surrender?
5. i'm too irresistable.it's a known fact that i'm hot.too many girls are after me.if i let one get too close,there are bound to be others.it's hard enough as it is..
6. i'm too preoccupied with myselfi'm narcissistic.i look in the mirror,and the next thing u know i'll be staring at myself so long people are starting to line up before me.i wonder why some mirrors crack though..
7. i've got a computeri'm sorry,my heart is filled with love for this baby.u wont get anywhere close right now.i'm stedfast as a rock!
8. i can get too emotional sometimes.i write poems,cry everytime i see the sunset, cry again seeing that poordog licking ice off the road in peak winter, and cry yet again when my eyelids get stuck from the frozen tears..what happens when all that emotion get blown out of proportions in an even more emotional relationship?
9. i'm the type who zones out often, but i see couples..man- it's like outer space!
10. in my planet,girlfriends are synonymous for wives..there's actually no such thing
hehe just for laughs..
The Hardest Test
Monday, December 11, 2006, 5:47 a.m.
MasyaAllah, in front of me, everyday, are very attractive Malay Muslim women, who are not only pretty and beautiful, but bright, clever, lively and most importantly faithful to God. InsyaAllah, those who are lucky enough to be their husbands will be happy, and have no regrets on their choice. I myself wouldn’t regret if any of them should be fated to be my partner here and in the Hereafter, if I am lucky enough. Most probably I wouldn’t refuse any offer from them to be my wife, and there lies the crux of my problems.
If I was ready, I would have taken any of them as my wife. But now is not the time, and that becomes a problem when I meet them everyday, but have to wait years before I marry (insyaAllah). And what do we do now? I can’t court them, as it would only lead us nearer to zina… and Allah s.w.t. states “la taqrabbun zina” – do not come near to zina (adultery?- sorry if there are mistranslations).
This is a problem not just for me, but for every young people learning in higher institutions nowadays. That’s why I respect those who marry now, because I can’t.
We, who haven’t married, should not do anything that could lead to sex, should not talk in a way that could arouse it, should not contact each other that way, lest it could lead to sexual thoughts about the other party. Thus the hormones and lust argues with this, and this torments my mind at times. I try to find the way all the time, Alhamdulillah, God has given me a mind just like any human, which could think and find a way. He has given me faith and taqwa, and my prayers always contain the request for Allah to show me the straight path, the path of those He has bestowed His grace, and not the path of those who He will show His wrath, or those who go astray – lest I forget to ask for it later.
InsyaAllah, I will try my best and follow this path.
I never go too far in any relationship with any girl I can marry. I know she’s attractive and all that. But I think twice, and many times before I actually will bend the rules, and I especially don’t want to break any rules of God.
This is a problem, as many guys will go after such girls, and I can’t blame them. Many have gone that way, many have found their partners who they want to marry, a non-official system of booking before marital relationships, maybe. And here I am. Call me stupid, call me a loser. I don’t know. All I know is I try my best to do what’s right, and not do what’s wrong by God, and to my best keep the faith that Allah has planned everything for me, and I will find the perfect partner for me, who I will love for Allah, in his grace, forever, if not here in this world, then in the Hereafter, insyaAllah.
I hope I don’t break any hearts, including mine…
Sunday, February 18, 2007
How can it be, that a few months later, and I still have the same problems? I wonder if this has been the case for the past few years, ever since I found out what was so interesting about girls was. I read some articles on the same subject, and thought about making a similar article. Then I remembered this article I made last December, read it again, and found precisely the words I was looking for-again, maybe even better put than I ever could today. O God, give me strength..
MasyaAllah, in front of me, everyday, are very attractive Malay Muslim women, who are not only pretty and beautiful, but bright, clever, lively and most importantly faithful to God. InsyaAllah, those who are lucky enough to be their husbands will be happy, and have no regrets on their choice. I myself wouldn’t regret if any of them should be fated to be my partner here and in the Hereafter, if I am lucky enough. Most probably I wouldn’t refuse any offer from them to be my wife, and there lies the crux of my problems.
If I was ready, I would have taken any of them as my wife. But now is not the time, and that becomes a problem when I meet them everyday, but have to wait years before I marry (insyaAllah). And what do we do now? I can’t court them, as it would only lead us nearer to zina… and Allah s.w.t. states “la taqrabbun zina” – do not come near to zina (adultery?- sorry if there are mistranslations).
This is a problem not just for me, but for every young people learning in higher institutions nowadays. That’s why I respect those who marry now, because I can’t.
We, who haven’t married, should not do anything that could lead to sex, should not talk in a way that could arouse it, should not contact each other that way, lest it could lead to sexual thoughts about the other party. Thus the hormones and lust argues with this, and this torments my mind at times. I try to find the way all the time, Alhamdulillah, God has given me a mind just like any human, which could think and find a way. He has given me faith and taqwa, and my prayers always contain the request for Allah to show me the straight path, the path of those He has bestowed His grace, and not the path of those who He will show His wrath, or those who go astray – lest I forget to ask for it later.
InsyaAllah, I will try my best and follow this path.
I never go too far in any relationship with any girl I can marry. I know she’s attractive and all that. But I think twice, and many times before I actually will bend the rules, and I especially don’t want to break any rules of God.
This is a problem, as many guys will go after such girls, and I can’t blame them. Many have gone that way, many have found their partners who they want to marry, a non-official system of booking before marital relationships, maybe. And here I am. Call me stupid, call me a loser. I don’t know. All I know is I try my best to do what’s right, and not do what’s wrong by God, and to my best keep the faith that Allah has planned everything for me, and I will find the perfect partner for me, who I will love for Allah, in his grace, forever, if not here in this world, then in the Hereafter, insyaAllah.
I hope I don’t break any hearts, including mine…
Sunday, February 18, 2007
How can it be, that a few months later, and I still have the same problems? I wonder if this has been the case for the past few years, ever since I found out what was so interesting about girls was. I read some articles on the same subject, and thought about making a similar article. Then I remembered this article I made last December, read it again, and found precisely the words I was looking for-again, maybe even better put than I ever could today. O God, give me strength..
Mukadimah
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
This blog was created by me after months of pondering, and asking myself. I am a 22 year old Muslim, a Malaysian by nationality, and a student studying overseas. I already have another blog, before this I thought that it was adequate, but later on I realized that I couldn’t write what I am about to write here, on the base of anonymity, because of many things.
Here, I will put what my heart tells me, insyaAllah. I will do it, so that I can remind myself of why I’m here, what my real aims are, how I should live and think as a Muslim, and have a greater conscience in life, for the benefit of me, and others who happen to stumble on this blog, so that we may become better, as Muslims, as Allah’s slaves.
Why the anonymity?-Because I want to keep my honesty, and humility, so that I would not let pride get in the way of my way of life (though in some ways, it still wont help unless really remove pride from my heart fully,insyaAllah, maybe one day I can); and so that I can say what I want without hurting others. I can save their face, save mine too, and also talk about my own misgivings and weaknesses.something I would not do without anonymity.
I might blabber a lot, like right now, but that’s the whole point. Of course I’ll try not to do that too much. Part of me wants others to read this too so they may benefit from my writings, and think of what to do with their own lives. Another part is still afraid of me showing my vulnerable side, my mistakes and such, to others, because experience tells me that I should never show my weaknesses. Maybe I won’t tell too much, that’s up to me, especially if it doesn’t benefit anybody. This anonymity isn’t that secure anyway.
I am not really that good or active a da’ie( someone who spreads Islam). Some bloggers are active da’ies, some listen to Islamic lectures regularly, some read Islamic books constantly. I am talking about only the da’wah aspects, not ibadah as a whole. But I am lacking in both. I don’t do what I wrote just now as much as I could or should have, so I wanted this to be something that increases my da’wah activities.As a human, I have so many questions, and I try to find the answers, like everyone else.
As a start, I will put some of my previous writings I kept but never showed others.
This blog was created by me after months of pondering, and asking myself. I am a 22 year old Muslim, a Malaysian by nationality, and a student studying overseas. I already have another blog, before this I thought that it was adequate, but later on I realized that I couldn’t write what I am about to write here, on the base of anonymity, because of many things.
Here, I will put what my heart tells me, insyaAllah. I will do it, so that I can remind myself of why I’m here, what my real aims are, how I should live and think as a Muslim, and have a greater conscience in life, for the benefit of me, and others who happen to stumble on this blog, so that we may become better, as Muslims, as Allah’s slaves.
Why the anonymity?-Because I want to keep my honesty, and humility, so that I would not let pride get in the way of my way of life (though in some ways, it still wont help unless really remove pride from my heart fully,insyaAllah, maybe one day I can); and so that I can say what I want without hurting others. I can save their face, save mine too, and also talk about my own misgivings and weaknesses.something I would not do without anonymity.
I might blabber a lot, like right now, but that’s the whole point. Of course I’ll try not to do that too much. Part of me wants others to read this too so they may benefit from my writings, and think of what to do with their own lives. Another part is still afraid of me showing my vulnerable side, my mistakes and such, to others, because experience tells me that I should never show my weaknesses. Maybe I won’t tell too much, that’s up to me, especially if it doesn’t benefit anybody. This anonymity isn’t that secure anyway.
I am not really that good or active a da’ie( someone who spreads Islam). Some bloggers are active da’ies, some listen to Islamic lectures regularly, some read Islamic books constantly. I am talking about only the da’wah aspects, not ibadah as a whole. But I am lacking in both. I don’t do what I wrote just now as much as I could or should have, so I wanted this to be something that increases my da’wah activities.As a human, I have so many questions, and I try to find the answers, like everyone else.
As a start, I will put some of my previous writings I kept but never showed others.
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