Mukadimah

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

This blog was created by me after months of pondering, and asking myself. I am a 22 year old Muslim, a Malaysian by nationality, and a student studying overseas. I already have another blog, before this I thought that it was adequate, but later on I realized that I couldn’t write what I am about to write here, on the base of anonymity, because of many things.

Here, I will put what my heart tells me, insyaAllah. I will do it, so that I can remind myself of why I’m here, what my real aims are, how I should live and think as a Muslim, and have a greater conscience in life, for the benefit of me, and others who happen to stumble on this blog, so that we may become better, as Muslims, as Allah’s slaves.
Why the anonymity?-Because I want to keep my honesty, and humility, so that I would not let pride get in the way of my way of life (though in some ways, it still wont help unless really remove pride from my heart fully,insyaAllah, maybe one day I can); and so that I can say what I want without hurting others. I can save their face, save mine too, and also talk about my own misgivings and weaknesses.something I would not do without anonymity.

I might blabber a lot, like right now, but that’s the whole point. Of course I’ll try not to do that too much. Part of me wants others to read this too so they may benefit from my writings, and think of what to do with their own lives. Another part is still afraid of me showing my vulnerable side, my mistakes and such, to others, because experience tells me that I should never show my weaknesses. Maybe I won’t tell too much, that’s up to me, especially if it doesn’t benefit anybody. This anonymity isn’t that secure anyway.

I am not really that good or active a da’ie( someone who spreads Islam). Some bloggers are active da’ies, some listen to Islamic lectures regularly, some read Islamic books constantly. I am talking about only the da’wah aspects, not ibadah as a whole. But I am lacking in both. I don’t do what I wrote just now as much as I could or should have, so I wanted this to be something that increases my da’wah activities.As a human, I have so many questions, and I try to find the answers, like everyone else.
As a start, I will put some of my previous writings I kept but never showed others.