i dont listen to music

22 january - i made this entry intending to put it in my main blog. but later rejected the idea, later on made a somewhat similar entry there, and now i'm gonna post the original one here
i don listen to music
i dont follow what stars do
i dont listen well
i dont talk well
i dont mind missing out on anything
sometimes i dont like to communicate
i dont take criticism well
i dont take pressure well(trackback: insyaAllah now i am better at it, and will get better)
i dont take praises well
i'm afraid of hurting others' feelings, and mine too
i never liked making decisions that affect others alone
it's hard for me to make a decision
if i dont go all out, i dont come out at all..and mostly i dont
i'm no longer a competitor, i'm afraid i'm not good at sportsmanship, or taking care of those who dont
i generally remove myself from competition
i'm not up-to-date on most things people know of
i'm not as consistent as i like
when i'm down, usually there's nothing much that can be done
i dont support supporters well, i dont know what to do with them
i dont know what to do with peoplei have low self esteem at times, i lose confidence too
i have an ego that's very stubborn and hard to get rid of
i feel like i want attention subconsciously, but i really dont want attention
at 22, i still couldnt control my self fully..i cant do what's needed at the appopriate time
i can irritate others without even trying
i can hate, feel jealous, but i try to push them away the moment they come
i cant help feeling bad when bad things happen
i'm usually,was naturally indifferent to others. i dont have much sympathy for others, though i can empathise.though right now it's still much better than before(i was totally ignorant of others' feelings)
i just might be the most boring person i know..i dont have any interests nor an interesting character
i dont have anything i really actually want to buy.i tried wanting to buy...but it didnt happen
i might have only one serious interest: eating. others fluctuate. right now i'm trying to like some things..
i suffer depression too often
i dont like to talk..i usually make mistakes and i keep blabbering still
i dont follow rules or norms too well
i can follow some unnecessary stuff somehow
i have a stupid habit of following my moods too much
i might hate studying and running
i hate not getting what i want, i have to live with it though
i hate it when it's actually my fault
i hate having to react if it's someone else's fault
i'm not really interested in other people..usually i try really hard nowadays